If I fail to feel connected
To your hymns for him
And if I cannot feel the love
In each and every limb
Anymore
If I struggle hard to hide
My disgust from you
And if my heavy arms won't wave
As freely as yours do
Anymore
If I have unlearned by heart
The lyrics to your song
If I don't feel the inspiration
To dance and sing along
Anymore
If it tears my soul apart
To believe in souls
And if I can't abandon that
Which – deep within – controls
Anymore
And if it's always been this way
– It needs to be confessed –
Indeed, it can't be all my fault
For I have done my best
And cannot do
Any more